Help me Remember..

There are days in my life that never go as I plan for them to be or go. I learn that my life will always be one crazy circus with everything I am in this world. I mean, me being a mother, wife, sister, daughter, friend, a shoulder to lean on, and everything that someone may need me to be for them.

God you know how really tired I am, my face is starting to slowly show how worn out I am. But it doesn’t stop me from trying to be all that is needed of me. Yes I need a break! But there are days when things become so frantic, that I wonder why? Did I miss something? You made the world and the world made seven days that still feels like it's not enough. I started to notice, I somehow no longer remember which day it is anymore. My days become a blur! Then I try to remember that you are not asking me to wake up and repeat that frantic day. To wake up and start a new day! Sometimes it’s just hard, when you feel like you’re alone and feel like you really don’t have anyone to lean on.  

Please help me to remain a loving mother to my children, because they need me to guide them through this world of good and bad. I want to teach them to be kind, loving, giving, and grateful. Help them through the heartaches of love and friendships that come and go. Help me find balance in my life, so I don’t have to feel so tired. Help me to remember that you are by my side when I find myself at the foot of my bed in tears from having a jam packed hour of every day. Help me feel hope, when I feel hopeless from our challenges that we face in our family.

To be a mother in my home, in my family, in my situation is different than many other mothers. You have shown me that no one’s life is the same-but we are different in every way. Others can only sympathize as we all experience that frustration of life. When I am trying to finish up a work project, planning dinner, trying to makes sure we can afford what our kids need, {sometimes it’s all at the same time it seems, like if my life never stops to allow me to breath}, remembering not to bit my husband’s head off, laundry, work, to keep touch with friends, {because I haven’t done so, feels like I have no time anymore}, and everything else that gets thrown at me. Help me to remember how much you love me and give me a moment to just wallow in that.

I know you hear me, when I cry for help and to be understood. I cry that it’s all too much and I sometimes don’t understand your reasoning. You know I still push forward and embrace all that good and bad that comes our way. But I do want to rest, I do want order, balance, and I want to finally breathe.

Most of all, help me to remember to ask for help and to rely on you for strength when I have none left; for patience when mine is so often gone; and for the wisdom and endless well of compassion and love I need in my job as a mother, wife, sister, daughter, running my own business, and friend. I am only one person and can only do so much!