Good Enough?!

Passion, what is passion? Passion: a strong affection or enthusiasm for an object, concept, ect. My life is my passion, my work is my passion and my joy is the passion I love creating. Pass few years I have held in who Jessica really is, because I don’t want to be hurt or feel like I am someone’s gossip of jokes. When in truth only such a select few really understand me and know what makes me happy. In part, I have many that support me and never let me shin away from it.

Before I had this amazing experience, in the past few weeks I have had my friends & family tell me so much about how they are proud of me. I haven’t felt that in so long, I don’t think I have about anything. I know when I am proud of things I have done, but not many have came out and said it to me. Again I am thankful for those friends & family.

It’s been a month since I have been accepted into a huge modeling & photographer industry that allows you to expand your work. Not only does it do that, it also opens doors for many to be found and move in the directions they dreamed of. I have battled a lot in my years and always put other situations above my own. When I saw this message and jumped to respond I was a happy gal. I watched the video and there was my dream, my concept of where I want my passion to go and just be able to create. So with a sudden phone conference, not knowing he had already researched all my work. Only bad thing he said about my work (Not afraid to say it or admit) is that it was mediocre & I haven’t done anything to set myself apart from everyone else. Completely true! My work is solid, I don’t need to be taught to be creative, my eye is there and that my talent can go further than what it is now.

So here is my situation! Training is going to be intense, its 8 months, long hours, going to be beat down to reality (that I already know) and my world will be open. I will learn more on the business side and editing skills, but my eye will never change because I know what I want to see. But with this comes time away from my family, long hours, traveling, and not really having time to be with friends. My offer is this: I train with Mr. Warren and I have my options of work with his studio. Yes with his studio, why because he believes I am good enough. I am enough right now, but wants me to be more than enough to have on as a team player. If I choose not to share the name, I can still work with him but contract with a percentage with work handed to me. From fashion to families! Mainly my boudoir side of my dream!

I want people and friends to understand if I take this my time becomes my time! I won’t have time for others other than my work and family. Because when I have just a moment to be with my kids & husband that’s what I’ll do. My friends are like my family and I hope they understand I can’t always be there now. I just want to feel guilty down the road that I made a mistake because I don’t or can’t make the time. Sometimes in life we have to give up something in order to pursued happiness. Be determine to make it happy and I am determined to do so. So I was given a time frame and it’s something myself and Harry are discussing. He is all for it, but I look at my kids-mainly Ian who may not understand and it could make things worse for him. With Harry being hurt, it’s all timing! This is a huge door for me and I hope those who believe in me are proud and continue to pray for nothing but the best for us.

So that is my deal my life changing decision.

Xoxo

Jessica Ann G.